Finish This Sentence

Found this fun little questionarie well visiting Stephanie, and thought it was a fun way for my followers to know more about me!

If calories didn't count, I would eat..
A whole thing of mint chocholate ice cream, and not even share or think twice ;)

On my Prom night..
sat at home until, all my friends were ready to hit the party. Spending money on a dress and ticket just wasnt my idea of a good time. That and the fact I would of had to buy my own dress seeing how I didnt live with my parents..

When I go to the store, I always buy...
a snack, skittles or a bar of some sort.

Family functions typically involve..
drinking, and lots of fun games and prizes and FOOOOOOOD!

I think my blog readers..
Are AMAZING, but I wish y'all would comment more!!

I'd much rather be...
At the beach

I have an obsession with...
Instagram ..kalleent87

My work friends...
are actually my real life friends!

When I created my Facebook account...
I thought it was STUPID, and was NEVER going to last cause Myspace was the cats ass...

My least favorite word is
Cant think of any right meow..

I really don't remember...
my 21st birthday..really I just dont..

Justin Bieber...
is the cutest thing ever!

What easter doesnt mean to me!

When I was a kid I remember getting Easter gifts. Freaking Easter gifts. I cant for the life of me understand why my CATHOLIC mother thought it was acceptable to give us gifts on Easter, instead of taking us to church like some of my friends parents did.

Not that I wanted to back then, in fact although I was raised in a catholic school my entire life I never believed in Jesus until a few years ago. Therefor I was content with doing the whole Easter bunny ordeal. Now adays I'm all like ..

Like Santa's 1 thing, but I mean A freaking "unknown person" bunny leaving you candy and toys. Like really, that's not creepy or really fucking weird at all, totes normal. Because you know I'm sure that's exactly what Jesus was hoping for you know right before he was nailed to a cross, yep. He totes ma goats wanted you to really have chocolate and new toys.

So needless to say, no ones getting any Easter gifts, because that's stupid.

PLEASE feel free to shed some light on the purpose of candy & toys on a religious holiday!?

And just because I thought these eCards were to funny!

#backthatazzup Friday!

Do I luv music, check
Do I luv linkups, double check
Do I luv the shit outa whitneys blog, triple
Its friday peeps, usually I only do my friday letters on fridays but since I luv all 3 things listed above Im totes linking up.
Incase yall are wondering why I keep saying totes, I got it from I love you man, LUV  josh Paul rudd. A few weekends ago my friend thought I said cum tokes instead of totes ma goats .. #Iluvmyfriends
Anywhooooooooooo,
whitney (when shes not late) does #backthatazzup fridays.

It also says "at the end of your Friday posts simply add a YouTube video or a Grooveshark play button of your song choice for the day" but im NOT that smart, and media sites are banned from work where I sit around and blog all day help customer make there cell phones work again.
So heres my top songs this week:

Ace Hood ft Rick Ross - bugatti

DJ Khaled ft Future, T.I, Lil Wayne, Ace Hood - Bitches and Bottles

Taylor Swift - 22
Game - All That (lady)

Kayne West ft Big Sean & Jay Z - Clique

Adele- Roumor has it

Miguel - adorn

Coldplay - Every tear drop has a waterfall

*anyone else LUV the Mylo Xyloto album?*

So there ya have it folks my most listened to jams this week, C y'all on the flip side home skillet biscuits

Friday Letters

Welcome to "Friday Letters" Be sure to join the link up with Ashley



Dear John,
I couldnt even begin to tell you how excited I am to spend my vaca with u & my nephews expirencing your new town, and doing what we do! luv u bro, miss u more!

Dear Jay,
Theres a reason you here, a reason your alive. I dont have answers and i dont know why. I know your loved, I know your care for. Open your eyes, the world is yours.

Dear Sam,
Thanks for inviting me out last night. I had so much fun, although Im REALLY hungover right now. Thank you for water baby jesus

Dear Lisa,
I cant wait to go out with you tonight and get white girl wasted! miss your stinking cute face

Dear Carissa,
I may have got a little to excited when this showed up in my inbox...

Come Oct 5th, I WILL have a niece.. At least I hope.

Also Joining these link ups today, go show some love and "meet" new people!

Its okay..

Linking up with amber for...

Its okay,
to get paid the day befor you usually do #luvlongweekends

Its okay,
to not luv the long weekend as much as everyone else when the only day you get off is saturday, ahh well could be worse

Its okay,
to still act like your 14 yr old self when it comes to boys and realtionships right?! :/

Its okay,
to spend your 2 week budget in 1 weekend.. #yolo right?

Its okay,
To spend your first weekend way from your main hoe, espically if you get to get white girl wasted with this sexy biotch! xox luv u LDawgy Dawg!

12 reasons gays "shouldn’t" be allowed to marry

So I was working on a blog post for today, which was going to be all serious full of fuck u if you dont like people who arent straight, but then I found this website and died laughin.
Side note:
once I called porn where two dudes were getting it on "gay porn", and BFF Tony LOST it on me gettin all like "do I call your porn*not that I make porn* black porn, do I call it migit porn, when there only 3 ft?"  - -he was totally jokin but he made me really thing of how losely we use the term "Gay"

Back to the story ;
12 reasons gays shouldn’t be allowed to marry

This list uses sarcasm to show the ignorance of arguments against same-sex marriage. Please read it with a sense of humor. Just for the record, I am not gay but support marriage equality for all.

 

 

 

1.Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

- Because no one has even boughten boobs & hair either

2.Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

-Because I cant tell you all the box ive been eatting latly and all the crazy lesbo dates ive been on since hanging out with Tony

3.Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets, because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
-Because nothing says I love you by really doing it doggie

4.Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn’t changed at all like many of the principles on which this great country was founded; women are still property, blacks can’t marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
- Because eatting an apple a day keeps the doctor away

5.Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed. The sanctity of unions like Britney Spears’ 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
- Because nothin screams I really love you like running for the hills, im sure thats what gays are waiting for a chance to make everything they want come true, then decided they change there mind

6.The only valid marriages are those which produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn’t be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren’t full yet and the world needs more children.

- Because you know this makes sence people think about it, lets not be fair to everyone god wouldnt want that

7.Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

- Because all the gay kids I know have gay parents too..

8.Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That’s why we have only one religion in America.

9.Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That’s why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
- Because NOONE ever made it anywhere without 2 proper role models

10.Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. We could never adapt to new social norms, just like we haven’t adapted to things like cars or longer life spans.
- Dont forget about the internet, EWW

11.Civil unions (providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name) are better, because a “separate but equal” institution is always constitutional. Separate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as separate marriages for gays and lesbians will.
- Because you know good ol' rosa parks thought the same way

12.Gay marriage should be decided by people, not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of the minorities.
- Yeah totally crazy thought!

A broken Heart

We all know broken hearts suck! its the worst kinda of pain a human can feel. To have your heart shattered even sometimes kills people. Over the last 3 years my brothers life has been turned upside down. This kid has had everything thrown at him, and hes still walking. He found out his own father had been lying about his exsistance. Even though I could see it crushed him, he carries on. Stronger then Ill ever be. He was in a car crash that almost killed not only him, about another girl as well. Because the drive couldnt understand not to race in the pouring rain, because when you do your car ends up looking like this

Surpisingly all the kids in the car walked away.

He lives with our mother, who isnt the best at provding love and guidance. Which my brother more often then not shows that he has neither. I know that he does, cause im his sister. Im the only one who knows him inside and out. I know when he's hurting, and I usually know the right things to say, atleast I hope I am.

With all of these things he still carries on, stronger then ill ever be. I see the struggle he goes thru everyday, feeling not loved only by me. Yey he still carries on, stronger then ill ever be.

He doesnt just have me that be selfish of me to say, but thats what I hear day after day.

Theres also a girl, hes loved forever. At 20 forever isnt long, but this love is intense. Its the love you read and see in the movies. Where 2 people are so in love that there relying on each for everything. They trust each other with there lives. The other would never let anything happen, there jealously is unreal, there fights are crazy. At the end of the day there always there for each other. He talks to her and opens up about his feelings in a way that I couldnt understand, because she can console him in a way that I cant. I love this girl, shes almost feels like family to me. After being around for the last 2 years, I couldnt think of her as anything less. Except for now, now I dont understand where there at, and neither does he.

His heart is broken. I can see it in his face. I've never heard him say, "Im over this" "im done fighting with her" or "fuck this relationship". Untill she called it quits. I saw that brave soliders shoulders fall. I saw the fear in his face, of not knowing whats next. I pain that I cant take away, that I cant change. I dont even have the words to say to him. I try to sit in silence with him, I try to listen to his thoughts, I try to say something encouraging, but then I keep asking myself, how do you deal with a broken heart?

how will you spend your dash?

"I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning to the end. He noted that first came the date of her birth And spoke of the following date with tears, But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years. For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth ... And now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not, how much we own, The cars, the house, the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard; Are there things you’d like to change? For you never know how much time is left That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what’s true and real And always try to understand The way other people feel. And be less quick to anger And show appreciation more And love the people in our lives Like we’ve never loved before. If we treat each other with respect And more often wear a smile, Remembering that this special dash Might only last a little while. So when your eulogy is being read With your life’s actions to rehash Would you be proud of the things they say About how you spent your dash?"
- unknown

This weekend I..

linking up with Sar and Syn For ..

This weekend I..
worked worked worked

This weekend I..
couldnt have been have more lame, seriously.

This weekend I..
got drunk on three 5 drinks, and was still drunk the next day.

This weekend I..
played new games "What the fuck?" and "Battle of the sexes" - which quickly turned into a game of Charades :) and who doesnt love drunk Charades?

This weekend I..
saw the funniest picture on facebook of how chicks end up looking like pandas!



Also Linking up with Sami for...



and Molly for..

Yeah im still drunk..at work?

Hey loves,
welcome to sunday funday. Except its not really all that fun when your expecting to be hungover in a few hours. Which is the boat that I'm in. Not to often does it happen that I wake up drunk but when it does I totally dread it. Im sure I cant be the only one. Ill admit its funny as shit at first untill you realize * if your anything like me anyway* that your hangover is about to kick it.
So last night I made the "bright" choice to go light on my drinking. You read that right, me and my bubblegum vodka were going the oppisite of how we usually do things! The vodka prob thought I was crazy, being all like bitch I own you, you only wanna have a few drinks, thats cool I'm gunna fuck with ya anyway.
I had 3 drinks last night, granted they were rather large drinks, so we will call it 5 drinks. Usually 5 drinks is how many I have BEFOR I leave for the bar, and usually it just gets me a good buzz. Last night on the other hand, I found myself shit showed. It was however a good night.
I think it was a sign not to change my hoeways always saturdays. Hoe & I go out every saturday with new  men people *hey single girls need to enjoy life!* last night since were both REALLY broke, we stayed in. We went over to this guys house that Audris seeing, and I brought a guy along with me.
WE NEVER DO THAT!
And look where it got me, drunk at work ..
ahh well, shortly I wont be so drunk infact I think im starting to feel the hangover already

Sunday Social

Linking up with Ashley for..

1. What is your favorite thing about spring?
Dry ground! no more snow & the temp starts to rise. Nothing feels better then knowing I can hangup that winter jacket

2. What is your favorite kind of flower to grow or receive?
I Def do NOT grow flowers, for VERY good reasons .. poor things. However I luv when I get any flowers as long as they are pretty, the more colorful the better

3. What is your favorite nail polish color?
Yellow, I get so many complaints that it looks great against my skin color

4. What is your favorite outdoor activity?
laying on the beach.. thats a activity right?

Why am i still "here"

On my bucket list one thing that I really wanted to do was move out of province, for atleast a year. I wanted to be uncomfortable. I wanted to know what it was like to have no one to rely on, to be completly on my own. See how I would make it. Well after having gone thru hell and back over the last 2 years I think I'm finally ready to take that step. I just wasnt sure to start, and i didnt know it at the time but if i left, I would of just been running from my problems, and I wouldnt have the answers to the questions I've been asking my whole life.

The only issue was I felt needed, and I felt like if I left I'd be letting down all the people who I thought really needed me. When I moved back home after my boozing situation feel out of hand and I found myself with no job about to be kicked out from my first apt without a care in the world, because I had booze and with booze my life was complete. Clearly it wasnt..I moved back home, it was only going to be temp until I found a job, and could you know live again without being a drunk and could make it back out on my own again. Befor I knew it it was well over a year, and I felt like they were dependant on me, for a sitter and for money, the thought of leaving them STRESSED ME OUT. Shortly after I met Ryan, again. *he was THAT guy from my teenage years,first crush/first kiss/first "love" he moved away when I was 16, and this was the first time in almost 7 years that I was about to see him* He moved into Amy & Pocks and eventually I relaized how fucked up Ryan was and I fell out of love with him just like that, but I fell into a friendship with him that was extremly unhealthy. He convinced me that we NEEDED each other. Truth be told, he needed a doctor and I needed to run for the hills. I didnt, what did I do I moved us into my brothers house, why? because my brothers wife would be starting school soon 3 hours away, she would be living there and coming home some weekends. I was worried about him being left alone. He has PTSD, and I knew that his outburst were controllable, but not always. I was afraid that he was going to hurt himself, or that he would need someone. Simpply put he needed me, way more then Pock and Amy did.

I feel like im always doing things to please other people, and I vowed to myself to never be that person again. To be the person who does things for herself, not other people. The person who knows what is important and that they matter. Thats the girl I used to be a little self centered with a good head on my shoulders. I loved being loud and crazy. I loved taking pictures and capturing every moment of everything because ilfe was to good not to reflect on. Then I found myself not wanting to reflect on life cause it was to painful. That being said I feel like I'm ready this time. Not sure where my life will lead me. If it will be a new career, a new relationship, a new town. Im just ready. I feel like I dont live for anyone but myself. I dont rely on anyone and I dont let people rely on me. Im a yes girl, I say yes to every thing that comes my way, why? because #YOLO

Friday Letters

Welcome to "Friday Letters" Be sure to join the link up with Ashley



Dear "Herman" theres something different about you, and I really hope to explore what we have going on

Dear Tony,
I FUCKIN MISS THE SHIT OUTTA YOU

Dear Jay,
Keep ur chin up xoxox

Dear Lisa,
Next weekend shall be a white girl shit show hoestravgansa!

Dear self,
keep doing what ur doing, ur awesome

Dear Blue jays,
Im coming for you April 20th! be ready!


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This weekend

linking up with Sar and Syn For ..

This weekend I..
played hooky ..and it was AWEOMSE

This weekend I..
got to visit the old roomies

This weekend I..
had a sleep over with a boy im crushin on ..TMI ..but WOW!

This weekend I..
went out with main hoe and jagger *aka Fergy Ferg

This weekend I..
decided I better go back to work after calling in 2 days straight..

Also Linking up with Sami for...



and Molly for..

Sunday Social

Linking up with Ashley for..


1. What is your favorite thing to do on a rainy day?
Usually just stay indoors laying around the house if it happens to be my day off, not having a car makes it really shitty to go out in the rain

2. What is your favorite thing to do on a summer weekend?
Bonfire, Trucks & Boys with guitars!

3. What is your favorite spring activity?
See above :p

4. What is your favorite way to spend a winter day?.
Warm :p

5. What is your favorite season and why?
Fall, the weather isnt so hot anymore, making the days and the nights perfect and that everything looks so beautiful

6. What is the best birthday you ever had?
When I was 16 I had my 3 girlfriends come over, and we drank a shit ton of energy drinks and wonder around our home town making asses of ourselfs. Or my 18th birthday, you know the one where I drank so much I projectile vomited off my back porch infront of all my friends & Amy & Pocks friends, and of corse theres a picture and no im not sharing:P Besides I couldnt if I wanted to ive actually only seen the picture twice Amy chooses to only bring it on "special occasions" I can imagine the next "special occasion" will be grand!

Its okay..

Linking up with amber for...
its okay,
to be 25 and confused about life right? just watch season one of friends!

its okay,
to be so obbsesed with LC aka Lauren Conrad you are about 2 finish the 5th book she wrote " starstruck"

its okay,
to book your holidays in april instead of the summer because you just miss your nephews soooo much,! Auntie can wait to see you guys

its okay,
to let yourself fall for someone again, as long as you keep your guards up and refuse to be hurt again in the exact same way

its okay,
to miss your bestie so much it hurts, luv you tony!

My random thoughts

I'm almost 26.
I'm have no real education.
I haven't been Able to find someone to love me.
How did this happen, how did I let this happen.
I never though I'd be that girl. The girl who didn't know her next step or not have an answer to life. I feel to old to be doing what I'm doing in life. Everyone of my friend's seems to have it figured out or atleast seem to. There all in love, so I guess that's my biggest issue. I'm lonley I want to feel the love that they feel. I want a man to look at my and not only want me forever but can show it to. I've never talked about my ex before on here and what happened. Long story short he promised me the world, he promised he never hurt me. He waited 5 years to be with me and when I told him I was falling for him he left. No phone calls no msgs nothing. He walked out of my life never my heart. I was devastated still am. Now I have all these fears that I'm never going to be able to allow myself to feel like this.

A few months back a friend of mine told him he liked me and if it wasn't for his past where he caught an STD he would of asked me out, I laughed and thought I would never date ur one of my best guy friends, get real. Then I realized it wasn't just him, it was more me. I didnt want to date him because I didn't want to get hurt, I didn't want to take the chance of having someone else decide I'm not worth being with.

The being loved by a man issue is the least of my worries I feel like when I looked into the future when I was a kid I thought when I turned 26 I'd be happily married, not that I'd be asking myself am I capable of being loved. Your parents are the first ppl to fall in luv with you, there suppose to love you unconditionally. There not suppose to ask you to leave at 16 because ur not able to understand ur child. And there not suppose to just walk away and stop talking to u when u ask for answers and get closure on ur past. I feel silly and ungrateful for complaining about my parents because God gave me my Amy & pock and I couldn't be more grateful they way my life turned out.

I just can't help the way I feel or make since of it, but the point of my blog is to have something to reflect back on to understand where I came from when I can't remember

This weekend I..

linking up with Sar and Syn For ..

This weekend I worked till 10pm on a friday night, which NEVER happens ugh i hate this new shift

This weekend I found an extra $20 bucks holla

This weekend I went to visit the old roomies and took silly pictures.

This weekend I drank with my hoe, anyone else feeling the bubblegum vodaka, DELISH!

This weekend I spend some time with both my boys, Jacob and Hudson. I loved every minute of it!

Also Linking up with Sami for...



and Molly for..

Friday Letters

Welcome to "Friday Letters" Be sure to join the link up with Ashley



Dear Jacob,
Meant to say this a few weeks ago, but damn you look so grown up in ur gr8 grad pics!

Dear Hudson,
I cant wait to hit all the parks this summer with you and your brother. I promise it will be more fun then last year!

Dear Amy,
Im so proud of you for going back to school. Everyday you set the bar for amazement, you piss excellents! you will rock at school!

Dear Audri aka Main Hoe,
Cant wait to hit the weekend hard with you! plus just found $20 this morning ..if thats not a sign I dont know what is

Dear Weekend,
I LOVE YOU

Dear work,
at 3PM tomorrow I will totally enjoy the fact I wont be seeing you for 3 fuckin days!

Also Joining these link ups today, go show some love and "meet" new people!

Its okay..

Linking up with amber for...
Its okay..
To say your going to workout everyday, but really it was once..last wk

Its okay..
To over update your instagram - @kalleent87

Its okay..
to totally be in awe over the picture my sister inlaw sent me subject line "Our little sumo man"


Its okay..
To totally laugh out loud when Ecards answers your prayers and makes a Ecard for your best friend


Its okay..
To still think David Guetta is amazballs!